Tuesday, September 24, 2019
Wondering - Always Wondering.
I'm 2 weeks into my latest showing of the work I have been labouring over for the past year. I lost one week in the beginning of the month due to a trip to Nice, France which I felt was a great source of inspiration for work that would come afterwards. The time immediately after coming home was spent frantically putting this exhibit together and left me wondering if it really was the most urgent thing in this world, or if anyone would even notice or care if I stopped painting altogether.
Negative thoughts are, unfortunately, a part of my process - both the painting process and all of the other life stuff. Not unlike everyone else on the planet.
No one would likely care if my painting quietly disappeared from civilisation. I'm not sure of what is coming down the pipe in the next 20 years. All I know is that what I have done in the past 20 years has given me a trove of experience and has transformed my painting from merely nice, to much more expressive. My experience with color has given me confidence. My experience with line, form and composition has given me an eye for what works for me and what doesn't. Maybe the next 20 years will have me discovering something unique - I'll never know if I give up and throw in the towel now. With the EXPERIENCE I have under my belt, you'd think confidence would be a bi-product.
I think I'm mostly disappointed with the lack of curiosity from anyone who knows that I paint and thinks that because they saw something years ago, that the same sort of work is still being produced.
There is no way that, given my freedom from having to produce "saleable art", that I would continue on a conventional path. Maybe it's not ground breaking right now, but I think that when a creative is freed from commercialism, the mind can wander into new territory. I'm on my way there. I will try to be more positive. I, at least, know that I am breaking new ground every year.
ACRYLIC ON CANVAS, 100 x 70 cm.
ACRYLIC ON CANVAS, 50 x 40 cm.
ACRYLIC ON CANVAS, 100 x 70 cm.
ACRYLIC ON CANVAS, 80 x 100 cm.
I'm 2 weeks into my latest showing of the work I have been labouring over for the past year. I lost one week in the beginning of the month due to a trip to Nice, France which I felt was a great source of inspiration for work that would come afterwards. The time immediately after coming home was spent frantically putting this exhibit together and left me wondering if it really was the most urgent thing in this world, or if anyone would even notice or care if I stopped painting altogether.
Negative thoughts are, unfortunately, a part of my process - both the painting process and all of the other life stuff. Not unlike everyone else on the planet.
No one would likely care if my painting quietly disappeared from civilisation. I'm not sure of what is coming down the pipe in the next 20 years. All I know is that what I have done in the past 20 years has given me a trove of experience and has transformed my painting from merely nice, to much more expressive. My experience with color has given me confidence. My experience with line, form and composition has given me an eye for what works for me and what doesn't. Maybe the next 20 years will have me discovering something unique - I'll never know if I give up and throw in the towel now. With the EXPERIENCE I have under my belt, you'd think confidence would be a bi-product.
I think I'm mostly disappointed with the lack of curiosity from anyone who knows that I paint and thinks that because they saw something years ago, that the same sort of work is still being produced.
There is no way that, given my freedom from having to produce "saleable art", that I would continue on a conventional path. Maybe it's not ground breaking right now, but I think that when a creative is freed from commercialism, the mind can wander into new territory. I'm on my way there. I will try to be more positive. I, at least, know that I am breaking new ground every year.
ACRYLIC ON CANVAS, 80 x 100 cm.
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